Yana Kabirova

hello

I remember being about 4 years old and having this inner pondering of why couldn’t adults agree on things, why was there hurt and yelling, why can’t they share their true deep feelings to help understand each other. It was sad and confusing. I just wanted for each person to be held. So much grief was bottled up. And yet, it all seemed within reach. But it required ‘scary’ honesty and courage. And some other resources, – I see it now.

I still believe in possibility of understanding and connection and great transformations when truths and values are brought to light and are held with care. And this is my purpose.

We all have a story. We all belong.

Constellations

I went to a Constellations event with Courtney Wren. Going in I wasn’t really clear on what it was, but it felt right to sign-up. I got to witness and experience beautiful healing and many aha’s over that weekend. With the practice being soooo experiential I didn’t even need to “believe” what Courtney was sharing about the practice, I got to first-hand feel it for myself. 

Constellations practice sort of activated me, there was no doubt about this being a part of my path.

Deep gratitude to the ones I’ve learnt from over the years: Courtney Wren, Sarah Peyton,  Francesca Mason-Boring, Elena Veselago, Daan Van Kampenhout, Bertold Ulsamer and other teachers in the Field.

Ceremony, journey

There are many threads throughout my life that have resulted in me holding space for others. 
The dreamtime journeys have always been there, even if it took me years to work more intentionally with those. I’ve always held space for other’s emotional processing, since early age, in all sorts of environments. I also kept on finding myself in ritualistic and ceremonial spaces over and over, some that I don’t even logically remember how I ended up there. And since I’ve learnt to connect with my ancestral lineages and tap into the Knowing Field available, the world living experience has transformed again.

Closing of the Bones ceremony that I’ve studied with Taya Shopen, from EarthyBirth, brought so many threads of my life together and allowed me to expand, to free what was inside of me without direction. All the years of collecting and experiencing and being in the ‘strangest’ of places and processes now simply make me feel fully self, fully in my place, in my element, bringing this beautiful & transformational work to others. I continue learning and expanding as I walk my path.

Additional gratitude to Richard Rudd and Gene Keys team, as well as my  meditation teachers that have made a difference in earlier stages in my life. And to the plant world that I am now learning more with. And to each person that I’ve met along the way. I thank, I forgive, I embrace.

I am in awe of people every day, with all that is woven within each of us.

presence

I grew up in an environment where I was grounding and co-regulating nervous systems for others (while also being dismissed in other ways). Later on I learnt to do that from choice and love for humans, rather than the necessity and role that was put onto me (and letting go of that dismissal pattern). 

Holding people through a lot, the big emotions, the deeply stored discomforts & memories, tender moments, anxieties, darkness, and in the deep processing that takes place in the body as well as the mind is something I’ve been honoured to do as work and circumstantially for over 10 years now.

There were 3 years when I worked primarily with men and individuals with a strong need to ‘fall apart’, ‘collapse’, to let go of weight, expectations, shame, aggression, numbness, piles and piles of built-up *something* that wasn’t even clear to name. I got to sit with, give space and let them feel accompanied on their journeys. And I got to witness how then spaciousness, ease, joy, love and creation got to bloom. 

Now, my work is still so much about that release and dismantling of old and non-serving, rebuilding of foundational trust in self, while also about cellular recallibration and going into ancestral patterns and supports that are beyond us while also living in us and being accessible and making a difference in our daily lives. I see this as essential for larger expansion, as necessary for wholeness.

Hopefully this gives you a feel of who I am as a person and a space holder.